i wanna go korea!!!
i really wanna go korea.
i wanna buy things tt i like there.
but first.
i think i must save money.
so don ask me out anymore.
i ned to save money.
alot of money bfore i can go korea.

i wanna have a necklace like carrie in sex and the city.
its so nice. :(
i will get it sooner or later.
can purchase online.
was looking for it fer very long already.
it must be gold like carrie's necklace.
really look nice in gold lo.
ohh my.. i wish its like a friendship necklace.
but i dunno if i get it my friends will wear anot?
hahars. but it depends oso.
must depend on if i save the money to get it ok?
wait till you all r 21 ok?
i love the gold name necklace!!!

n sth else i want is the care bear cup!
from action city.
chloe mummy got tt for wen jun mummy.
so sweet.
i tink for bdae present.
so nice lo.
i oso wan! :(

:( hmmm. wats fer christmas?
i also dunno.
the best is angbao....
but i wanna get a vagary watch..
n artbox photo album...
:)
i love photo album..
to put all my photo.
i have lots of photos in my room without their cover.
tmr i will go get ur christmas presents ok?


misses my world..
fantasy world..

ok. s you request.
i will never talk bad abt her again.
cuz its all my fault.
i dunno y i still feel so sad, unimportant and emotional.
wen i go out wid you all.
i jus feel tt.
im extra.
yea. its calling her oly. hanging out wid her.
im jus extra, i asked you all.
i oso dunno y i felt so attached tt i must meet you all.
but im jus invisible bahs.
it doesn't matter if dere is me anot.
i feel like a total loser, stranger.
i cant believe mself either.
i relie wanna stop myself fer gng out wid you all.
but all say oly.
i dunno y i cant do it.
im sorry. baby.
sorry fer seeing de ugly and upset side of me.
i sorry fer treating you like tt.
i relie hate myself fer tt.
sorry to everyone tt i upset you all.
i throw my temper, i got no mood to go out.
fuck la.
i m a fucking loser.
i wish i can jus disappear.
but i cant.
i have commitments.

i wish tt i can change de habit.
habit of meeting you guys.
habit of needing you all by my side.
i ned to learn how to be independent n leave you all.
sorry fer being childish.
im childish. i admit.

im jus a childish bitch.
i wanna run away from reality.

wat is the term for best friends?
r dey jus like people who come and go?
why ?
subjective huh?
i hate the kinda feeling like im REPLACED!

replaced is the word right?
like how people tinks you r important n wanna kare abt you,
wanna be a listener for you.
but tts not de case animore.
im not alone.
i still have other friends. n my <3.
but of cuz you r de people i care abt alot.
to say the truth, alot alot.
even more den i dunno who.
but is relie very important.
which you all don even give a damn.
or even try to treasure it.
we used to take photos tgt.
but now.
im not or maybe never be in you all's pictures animore.
not animore.
maybe.
felt like taking up baby sitting jobs during chrismas period.
s i won have friends to celebrate christmas or even new year wid me animore.
not animore.
evrywhere i go i can c a bitch tt ruined evrytin.
i hate her !
everyday it increase.
but who cares?
noone. be tgt wid her all you like.
i don give a damn animore.


tanks chris.
for being dere wen i needed you.
to be my consultant wen i needed you.
a good friend indeed.
tt abandon me!
did i reli did anitin wrong?
anitin to make you angrie?
i jus wanna kno.
its hurtful to kno tt ohh.. it has gone dwn de drain.. destroyed by rain.. someone ate it up.
can friendship be easily flown away, or washed away?
i relie like ur company.
wen i need someone to be dere for me.... de first person i usually tink abt is you.
its not cuz i secretly like you or anitin.
is cuz i reli believe n tink tt you r my best friend.
a person tt would care n wanna kno wat i tink n wat i like.
but ohhh... aiis.
we haven been talking for long...
i do miss you some times.
but its like i wanna tell you wat happen to me.
wat have been the dramas in my life recently.
but now tt i realise you won be interested to listen animore.
not animore....
its sad.
im sad. im kinda lost.
w/o my best friend.
but wat to do.
life has to go on.
n maybe i will find another best friend in tym to come.
right?
move on! would be de best tin i could tink of now.



im jus jealous.
yes! i am!

after some tym ... i tot to myself.
tt im selfish.
i dunno.
maybe. i jus don like a bitch tt ruins other people's 6 yrs friendship.
wat to do?
do i have a choice?
no i don!
or maybe i should hate myself more.
n i relie do!
tt im like tt.
i hate myself for not being de best friend tt you all owaes wanted.
tt will make you all happy.
im like shit.
shit tt all my best friends abandon me for another girl.
or maybe not abandon.
but im jus like a useless tin tt dey will put me in a very small,unseen corner in their heart.


i hate myself!!!!!

its to you sam:

look. friends come n go.
i've learnt to accept others comments.
if they realise tt wat they say is wrong.
they will admit. n apologise.
if they really do care abt the friendship they will do it.
pls don ponder so much abt the things they wanna say.
n move on.
i kno wat she said its really hurting.
its a long friendship n it have come so far.
hurting hurting hurting.
its de word. tt is in ur mind.
y would words be so hurting.
by ur best of friends.
they may not treasure.
but look ard you.
you have many more true friends.
people tt r worried for you wen you r dwn.
wen you got hurt by other people.

n if they really wanna change.
they will admit tt they r wrong.
don worry.
friends will always be here for you.
n you kno i really do too.
pls do take care n don tink too much abt the hurting words.
they r out of anger.
=) take care my dearest friend.

ohh. wats love?
happy endings? marriage?
wats de real reason why is people in love? why are dey getting married?
its finding the right person.
putting ur mind straight abt love, finding the right person.
don narrow dwn ur mindset and don keep a distance towards the opposite sex.

the happy ending towards a break up is to move on in life.
the people tat don wan you are losing out.
dey r missing de best part of deir lifes.
n dey won realise it until de next one tt is worse.
so wat? who cares.
be true to yourself. love yourself.
n who knows you will find a better one right next to you.
or they maybe coming soon. faster than you expected.
open up your heart n look ard at the people around you.
you may find ur future there.

lets look forward to our new lifes.
move on. hahars.
=)

darling. can i work as a air stewardess?
should i try?
y not right?
i dunno.
i wanna give it a try. maybe it works out.
i love traveling.
i love exploring different things and different people.
just a few more months.
n im so excited.
maybe by then i won't be tt exicted anymore.
if i do get in.
den we can go holiday together.
living a different life and full of surprises and places.
would really be a fun thing. :)

dey will pick on their negative side.
all women will.
it is in our DNA.
do we really pick on the guys negative parts.
i don't know.
maybe i watched too much of sex and the city.
it talks about big n carrie.
super love story.
and it is a nice show.
it is very realistic.
for those people who dont agree with me then be it.
dont use that kinda way to look at me.
whats wrong with watching gossip girl and sex and the city.
i blog like carrie in the show.
i mean the things i right about.
like the all woman pick on guys because we care thing.
omg.

巨蟹座女子的愛情



巨蟹座的女子是相當憂鬱的。其實不只是如此，她也相當的

i relie deserve wat m i experiencing now.
saddness. or disappointed wid myself.
i dunno y i did i do tt , tt tym.
noone even me would understand wat was i tinking at tt tym.
i was rushing my thoughts thru.
i did wrong.
wrong decision.
wrong step to take.
evrytin is so wrong.
i oly knew it last nytes.
did i relie did it wrong.
didnt treasure wat i had.
didnt kno tt al tt would relie hurt sumone deep.
but i have my reasons.
relie.
i jus didnt solve it right.
i jus didnt did de it de right wae wen it should be.
jus hate myself fer ruining wat i have.
n ruining evrytin.
now i have lost it.
i dunno wat m i doing.
but i m sad. n sort of regret doing it.
i was wrong.
sorry. sorry fer doing tt.
i m not ready again.
i actualie tied myself up again.
i did not settled it well.
actualie i .........

m jus sorry.
i wil try my best to do de best fer us.
n evrytin.
i will not step over de border again.
i will not do tis again.
i tink evryone except me deserve again chance to change.
i don have animore chances.
i have actualie used dem all up.
god is punishing me.
although punishment is wrong.
but i tink i relie deserve it.



not ready to accept .....

cannot make decisions ryte.

super bored.
wishing tt sumone or anyone can accompany me xia.
slack or studie even better.
don hav mood to studie.
abit regret to take leave tmr.
no mood to studie.
don sae slp la.
aiis.
don tink tmr can pass..
tink *BOOM die!

ohh ya.
all bcuz of karma.
i hate it.
tt fucking feeling.
it relie hurts.

but de one who started it was me....

actualie my driving experience sucks.
my parking sucks la.
after tis i was tinking should i drive again.
dunno..
maeb must train more bahs.
wid de cash card n parking i suck at it la.
owaes ferget to put cash card..
den parking take dunno how long..
hahars. i felt lyk luffing at myself wen i rmb abt it.

tink if i have my own car noone wanna sit bahs.
my car will be super messy.
i will dump evrytin behind until noone can sit.
hahars.
dunno how manie million pepo tell me tat my car is so messy..
hahars. i oso dunno y.
wanna put it nicely oso cant..
i find tt its jus too little tym.
tink wen my daddy got a car..
it will feel more lyk mine.
i will put alot of decorations n lots of tins.
hahars.

thoughts of tis nice moments.
i tink i will still drive.
must practice more parking skills.
hahars.

don fall for someone unless they are willing to catch you.


it seems true..
jus believe it.
pepo will change deir minds even if dey promise dey will catch you wen you fall..

omg! i had a stupidest dream last nytes..
wat to have a new bf..
it was lyk i lost my fwens..
den my bad was wid dem.
den i met tis guy..
his hp is super weird..
i didnt kno how to use..
he helped me wid it..
n drove me ard..
den we got together..
wat a weird dream?!!
hahars.. so unrealistic la..
hahars..
wen i woke up felt lyk luffing la..
so dramatic..
so funny..
cant even rmb how he looked lyk..

it will not even cum true if you rmb de dream..
so it was so bullshit..
hahars..
it was so funny so i wanna share abt it.. hahars.

yea.. im super jealous..
by all fwens..
owaes rotate ard a new girl..
ahhh..
stupid mind..
tink dey relie don ned me le..
had a bad feeling tt dae.. or  tt nytes..
cried on de bus.. tinking abt how dey don ned me..
actualie quite emo..
tink i shouldn't meet you all too often..
but i cant help it..
i relie treat you all s impt s my familie..
maeb after my familie..
but i cant push awae evry n anitin fer you all..
i kno i shldnt but i did..
n i will..
aiis..
relie feeling so bad wanting to make you all so stressed up..
but i relie ned you all..
you all r relie very impt to me..
i dunno wat will i bcum w/o you all..
wat will i be now?
i cant c my future..
i m relie lost..

im not tinking abt anitin to do wid you guys..
jus feel you all r all lyk my brothas..
my big brothas..
n i love de wae you all make me feel impt..
de wae you all treat me..
de wae you all make fun of me..
i relie love de wae you all r concern abt me n take good kare of me..
im sorry..
im sorry fer putting so much stress on you all..

but jus wanna sae..
ii relie love you all alot..
dunno wat to do w/o you all..
dunno wat will happen to my world w/o you all..

im fucking angrie wid tis fucker..
irresponsible bitch.
her skul got h1n1 still cum to skul.
den our class all teachers.
if she spread to evryone how.
bitch.
no responsibility la.
den my fucking lecturer oso la.
sae nebermind.
wat de fuck.
den she didnt even go check or wat..
iiya.
jus super angrie.
make me miss lesson.
den oso make me go all de wae to skul den go home.
bitch.
don let me c you outside.
or let me kno wher you stay i will burn dwn ur hse.
n you.. fer shouting at me!
you re oly my teacher or maeb lecturer..
you have no rights to fucking shout at me la.
evryone have limits.
don make me fucking hate you.
bitch.
fucker..
you can be all of dem.
hope you all got h1n1 n all die la.

"The only one who would have to pay for a bad relationship is the person in your next relationship.”

 

So what could have been the reasons that you become love blind?

1. He always says wonderful things about you. In fact, if he’s into politics, he could win the run for presidency just by his talking.  A smooth talker can make you gullible and believe that even your closest friends are wrong.
2. He makes you believe that he really cares about you. In fact, he actually either ask someone to help him or use money to aid him with simply minimal effort in it.
3. He’s really a wonderful lover in bed. Sex can be both seductive and addictive for a woman to keep a man that is not right for her.
4. His good looks is the focus of all the attention, you get envies and praises on how you could have the hottest boyfriend around. But there is more to a relationship than merely good looks.
5. You are embarrassed and feared falling into singlehood.  Everyone around you are either married or attached.
6. Your friend and family has introduce him to you and they all feel that both of you are a great match. You feel obligated to be with him in order not to disappoint your friend and family.
7. Your age is catching up with you. Everyone is reminding you that you should settle down. But this doesn’t means you should married him even the relationship is bad.
8. You think that others are not interested. You believe that you couldn’t find someone better out there.
9. You think that your love can change him. But if you have really tried and it’s doesn’t works, why continue to dwell and stick to your naive belief?

So ladies, look at your relationship. If you in a relationship that simply is hurting you, muster your courage and get out of it. Move on before you find yourself so far into him that when getting out simply becomes very difficult.

 

i think its true..
hahars.

todae was a fun sat.
went out wid saman, cowell, kav and deir fwen.
i dunno how to spell her name.
but she is cute..
hahars.
i tink she is pretty.
dunno.

ok. we went to cheeky chocolate fer lunch.
den had warm chocolate cake.
omg!
but actualie i tink my grandma make one nicer.
of cuz i did help to make it.
maeb is de hardwork tt i put in so i tink its nice?
hmmm. den we went to take neoprints.
super ancient.
fergot wen is de last tym i went dere.
but didnt get to draw..
sadd. i love decorating de neoprint la..
although i will do until very messy but i tink super nice la.
nvm.. tts not de main point.
bought sum clothes.
had dinner at mathattan..
hmmm. de mini lobster sucks.
small n not very nice..
den we plan to go clarke quay fer dessert.
but i went back n meet wayne dey all..
at ning's hse.
den we went hmmm. near indoor stadium dere.
romantic la. but quite boring.
more of heart to heart tok places.
hahars.
had a lot of laughters dere.
tinking abt de past..
toking n looking at my vintage fone tt has dose vintage msges.

den went to eat breakfast at mac..
again......
so bored of tt fast food restaurant la..
lyk so evrydae eat kinda feeling.
but nebermind.. wayne sae he neber eat fer very long le..
so let him..